Good Morning San Francisco

Most of you already knew I landed in San Franc safe and sound via facebook not too long ago. Well, life has been a bless thus far. I can't really ask for more. I have this very nice and friendly auntie taking care of me while I'm here.

There are some interesting stuffs I would love to share: in the State, they have this carpool system whereby people can carpool with strangers to get to the city. Why would drivers want to fetch people they don't really know? Haha. Answer is they get to skip the traffic lanes and avoid the toll once they have more than 3 passangers in the car. Brilliant idea right?

Another place I visited today was the farmer's market. They are extremely cheap. And if you are just broke that day, you certainly can visit the market to get free samples and eat all you want. That's what I did today. Settled my lunch with food samples. Haha. And then they have a store, like a local mart, that solely sells their own brand's products. The red wine they produced, priced for 1.99USD only. Hard to imagine right? And they have free coffee for everyone. So the good plan is, go to grab something to eat in the market, get a coffee from the store, your lunch is settled. Haha. Pretty amazing.

No pictures taken yet because I forgot to bring my camera out for the past two days. Maybe tomorrow. Till then, bye and sweet dreams.

Teenage Dream

Well its just days left before I head to the State and begin my new journey of life. To be frank, I'm not as excited as I thought myself would be. Perhaps, this is what differentiate reality and dream - we tend to worry about everything in real life. Then, I start to wonder again, am I doing the right thing?

It takes a lot of courage, and money of course, to leave a place I've known since I ever open my eyes for the first time. So its devastating when you have people telling you, if I were you, I won't be going la.. so far away and expensive.. this and that. Well, you ain't no me. How do you know what was the reason I'm leaving?

Then I start to recall this little ambition of mine since, I can't really tell when. I wanted to do something that make my mum proud. Given the history of my family, I actually wasn't given any chances to fail in this one. I am not allowed to fail. Furthermore, I am the key person that determine where we stand in the future. Even though I know its gonna be a tough one to go out there and stand by myself alone, I have to. Don't I know its a big risk and not to mention, financially burdening too? I doubt I can watch movies as heavy as I did here because Im going to hell workalot there to earn every penny i spend!Of course I did all the maths. People asked my mum, how a widow like her was abled to raise all 5 kids so well? That's exactly the point I wanna prove to the world.

I had doubt in myself before this too. But my mum kept telling me, if we were given the opportunity to do something, we should grab it while it lasts. Now its the right time to go. God knows how long more the business can go well on. If I let it slip through, I might not make it in the near future. I don't wanna look back at my life and ask, what if.

Sometimes, people think they know what they want to know. But they never go underneath what's on the surface. They only take what they saw and jump into the conclusion. Well, take what you can. I can't tell you what to do. Its your thinking. And so is mine. I just hope that if you wanted to put yourself into my shoes, make sure you got into the right foot.

For the past few days I've been hanging around, having fun - a lot. Well, guess that's it. I should come back to reality. Because one day, these people won't be there for me as they have their dreams to chase after too, just like how I can't be there for them. I can't be blocking everyone and making them to compromise with me just because I'm leaving soon. I know they have their own schedules too. I am not the only friend. And thanks for enlightening my days. Appreciate that. Even a thought without action was sweet. You all make me feel like a teenager again.

But too bad, I'm already 21.

The Climb

"I can almost see it, that dream I'm dreaming BUT..."

Yes, there is always a 'but' in our lives. That's obstacles. I find it hard to sleep lately as I'm getting closer to realizing my dream - stepping into America. A lot of questions keep popping in my head - many times I try to tell myself its gonna be okay, there come another question: Am I gonna survive? Financially? Academically? Am I doing the right thing?

There's nothing much I can do now. I shall continue what I have started off - keep climbing and I might see the view I was looking for eventually. Wish me lots of lucks in that. Do check in some times after to see if I make it.

Confession of a Shopaholic

Yes.. if you know me close enough, you will know that I'm a shopaholic. It's not that I'm addicted to shopping, but there are few things that I can't resist when I"m supposedly window shopping:

1) Discount
Believe it or not, this works most of the time. It doesn't matter if its a 10% or 70% sales, because it gives me one good reason to buy something I don't need, simply because its cheaper and I'm saving by spending less. HAHA. When I get home only to realize, I can save more by not spending at all.

2) Buy one get another one for free/ 50% on 2nd piece
Just another way to attract my attention when shopping. Are you kidding me? We knew this trick since forever - like 3? One lollipop for 20 cent and 3 for 50 cent. Still we fall again and again because we thought its worthy. In my case, I will keep telling myself I'm buying the 2nd piece to have myself more choices of colors for the same pattern. (autohypnosis)

3) Brands
Don't judge me - yet. I'm not Gucci or Prada when its about shopping. I mean, they are still out of my league. It's embarrassed to admit but I have sharp eyes when it comes to quality of the material (given the history of me in clothing).

4) Fitting
With the height of mine, its hard to find clothes that can fit me well. (Unless they have XS for men.) Therefore, when I can find something that fits me well, I might not think twice purchasing. (failed again)

5) Limited Edition
That means only a few people owned the same thing. It becomes special, precious, unusual, not common, cool.. etc etc.. So that explained the latest purchase:

I was supposed to "have a look" at the Adidas limited edition Star Wars collection shoes

I tried it on, it fits me well, but I told myself I can't afford it. Yes, I did. Then they have something else for me.

6) Membership Card
WTF! Its like the promoter can read my mind! That is one fucking killing factor that affects all my judgements when it comes to shopping. So she offered me a membership card with the purchase of RMXX and above. Damn! How can I say no!? I tried again and again on the shoes, I ended up dropping it off and walked away from the store bought another pair of shoes that looks better on me. Epically failed! So this are the pair of shoes I fell for. Sigh. With the membership of course.



Overspent again. Sigh.

Inception

I've been anticipating this movie ever since I knew about the production. I mean, let's face it, its Christopher Nolan. (Who doesn't?!) Fortunately, I was able to get myself 2 passes for the movie premiere tonight. I brought mama along because she said she's interested (kononnya) when she saw the big poster at the Dewan Pustaka junction.

So we arrived early for the show, fearing we can't get good seats.trust me, I know As I just renewed my membership last month, I didn't notice there was a mistake in my membership card and the workers mistook me as an 'expired' member. They asked me to renew my card if I wanted to get the tickets. Freaked out as I would, I was worried that they won't allow me to enter the cinema. ThankGod the workers were kind enough to let us in and deal with the issue later (tomorrow).

*fastforward* (Spoiler ahead!)

Then there was Leonardo, lying on the beach, getting slammed by some waves and waking him up..and the story went on with..OK, I don't wanna spoil that movie, all I can say is, its about dreams. Go and wiki about dream and almost everything you have there can be related to the movie. Hence, go and watch yourself and come back to comment here! I'm dying to have someone to chat about with.

Big shoutout to Joseph Gordon-Levitt + Marion Cottilard + Ellen Page: Great job and I love you!