Symbiosis

Half my life I've been having issues trusting people completely. I'm 100% sure it stems from my childhood and all that mess I experienced in life. I think people in general are just using me as a tool. Truth is - it is the truth.

However, not one person till today has told me it is okay to be a tool. In fact - that makes you valuable. I am really happy today because I have found someone who sees values in me. You told me its okay to feel how I feel because we all are living based on symbiosis relationships. I should still have faith in people despite all these parasites who were drowning my life and that was really stupid of me to actually allow them to bring me down.

I am officially ending my great depression today. Life has been nothing but great and I'm grateful for finding someone who I can share my joy with. :) I'm not saying I won't get upset but I will try my best to stay happy. I know I can do it because now I know someone will have my back if I fall. You found me when I was at the lowest point of my life but I sure as hell will improve to be the best version of me anyone will ever seen.

Only four words to sum up how I feel now - 非常幸福

祝你新婚愉快

好 sad 感触啊～ 我有个由细玩到大geh表姐今日嫁人 我去唔到
好咀丧啊 我真系好想去ga
我妈打俾我同我通电 之后就pass左个电话俾表姐 其实我听到佢把声时
已经好想喊啦 点解啊～
我地系青梅竹马 由细玩到大 我仲记得话过要娶表姐添 哈哈
往事只能回味 唉
不过无论点都好 结婚系件开心geh事 应该邓人地高兴 唔开心geh post
就留番下次再blog 啦

新婚愉快啊表姐！

Being MintZhet

Its hard to maintain everything in the same condition all the time.

I was chatting with one friend of mine, and all of a sudden, he popped a question saying:
How long have we know each other for?

Wow.. then I started counting.. it's been seven great years.. we do, still remain as close as we were.. despite the fact that we are no longer studying together or always get to spend our times with each others. (That sounded just as gay as Chad Danforth!)

But some others, however, started to doubt about our friendships. Neither myself can determine the exact causes - was it my ego or the low self-esteem of others which developed without us realizing. Its such a sad case to see, people tend to take unintentional jokes as serious quotes. I have to admit on some points that, I did make some bad comments/ sarcasm/ critics that weren't meant the way they were sounded like (and I sincerely apologize if it sounds offending to anyone of you), but, by the end of the day, its up to how the messages were interpreted.

I'm stuck right now as I can't think of any words best describe me, or my feelings. Hopes to see changes in the future. I'd rather think life is challenging than difficult. After all, its our mindset. That's it.


Good night and happy new year.