It's Not Like The Movies

Finding someone who genuinely cares for  you is really hard. On top of that, they have to accept all your flaws and still find a way to bring out the best in you. I am blessed I know and I am grateful for that. Even though most of the time the reality is not meeting the expectations, it is good enough. For me at least. I don't expect life to happen just like the movies, because clearly it is not.

Symbiosis

Half my life I've been having issues trusting people completely. I'm 100% sure it stems from my childhood and all that mess I experienced in life. I think people in general are just using me as a tool. Truth is - it is the truth.

However, not one person till today has told me it is okay to be a tool. In fact - that makes you valuable. I am really happy today because I have found someone who sees values in me. You told me its okay to feel how I feel because we all are living based on symbiosis relationships. I should still have faith in people despite all these parasites who were drowning my life and that was really stupid of me to actually allow them to bring me down.

I am officially ending my great depression today. Life has been nothing but great and I'm grateful for finding someone who I can share my joy with. :) I'm not saying I won't get upset but I will try my best to stay happy. I know I can do it because now I know someone will have my back if I fall. You found me when I was at the lowest point of my life but I sure as hell will improve to be the best version of me anyone will ever seen.

Only four words to sum up how I feel now - 非常幸福

Niña

My final project for experimental animation. I love cutting papers. LOL. Just incase you wanna go like, its the same kite lo.. building moving.. blah blah blah, I just want you to know its stop-motion animation and there were at least 600 frames there.








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Ball Bouncing

I got a pretty score for this homework.



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Happy

I was reading an article today about Happiness & Joy. A line caught my eyes real deep:

We learn new things everyday. We learn to be stressed. We learn to be happy. Day by day, if we kept learning to stress, we get better in stressing ourselves; Same goes to happy. So, why are we learning stress instead?

I know things are always easier to be said than done. But, I guess, happiness don't just come by one day and say hello to you. You gotta make yourself happy at the first place. I am in the process of learning that. Need no to be upset for life. Shit things happen everyday. Looking for something to be happy about? Look outside from the window pane, breath-in, fresh air can makes one happy too. Just don't take things for granted. Appreciate every little things, be thankful.

And too from today onwards, I wanna learn another thing - honesty. Apparently real friends tell the truth; so if I think you are ugly I will have no problem telling you that to your face. So be offended and just leave cause you cannot accept the reality that you're ugly. Go find someone else who is willing to lie straight to your face that you are cute. I'm not that kinda liar. Not anymore. You are ugly. 'Nuff said.

(p/s: Im laughing to myself watching 'cater2u' video. Aww)

Most Expensive Experience (To Date)

It all started with a very lovely morning, I went to class as usual early morning and everything seemed so perfectly fine. Things started to get weird when I got to the class and there were just four of us there. And we wait, and waited; Apparently my teacher had something going on so he was late and we were free to go (according to the school policy or something). My original plan was to go and pick up my film after class but that was too early to get to the lab post since the class ended early. My pal Jana suggested that she fetch me home and we get some rest and she will come and pick me up again in the noon so we can both go to pick up the film later.

This is where the expensive experience comes in: We went into the post lab for about 20 minutes and came back with her car went missing! WTF!? Apparently she parked her car at the street that has time restriction for parking - you know, you are only allowed to park there for certain time. So her car got towed. In just 20 minutes. Holy shit I know.

So she made a few calls locating her car blah blah blah and she found it through the phone - it's somewhere 2 miles away. So we walked there and checked in to get the car. Guess how much she was charged for to claim back the car? $430 dollars!! Insanely crazy~ Reason #43212 not to drive in the City!!!

To add salt to the wound, when she got back the car, there was a ticket (saman) for her too! So pointless! Add that overall she paid about 500 dollar just to get back the damn car. Ughh! I felt terribly bad for her. And awful. And guilty. Ok, words can't really describe how I felt. Its horrible.

I don't know what I can do but I hope she gets better. Maybe I'm gonna buy her a coke. A coke coke not cocaine. LOL

Minty's Back Y'all!

After struggling for weeks of depressions and emo-thoughts, I finally get to put everything back on track and live my normal life: to be glam again!! This post is mostly to sum up what I did in the past one week.

#1: assignments overnights: the photos were taken 6 in the morning. LOL.

(However, not all assignments were done on time (again). Haha

#2: Dining in FullHouse. Yes Yes Meikee!! I did it before you. LOL! (I've been to NZX but never tried this before. P/S: Loky, deng your lung, NOT WORTH AT ALL!)
So cute!

Freaking not-worth-meal.


#3: Get ready for my long awaited holiday!! By holiday I mean getting out of Malaysia of course! (I got so fucked up due to the expiry of my passport. Have to get up 7 in the morning for the renewal. Ish. Ended up queueing long..sigh.) Who says Malaysians are having hard time on the economy crisis? People are floating in to make/renew their passports!! Its RM300.. not a small amount of cash people!


So much tension released now with my result out: Its not very good but totally expected. Glad that I don't have to retain. I'm considering to take a short break or something.. not sure.. Haha.. Now I'm waiting for Josh's good news.

Listen to:
My Love - The-Dream
Right To Dream

Slumdog Millionaired

SuperWednesday it was and I'd finally got a chance to popcorn for a movie which everyone should MUST HAVE watched by now - Slumdog Millionaire.

I walked into the cinema with quite a high anticipation, having read the critics everywhere about how great the show was. I was shivered, literally, being in the cold room and knowing how lil people* were there. It's safe to say, the movie was very well structured. (Ish, I can't stand myself talking so "formally".) To cut a long story short, you should watch the movie yourself. Haha..

Freida Pinto is definitely among a few actresses who I think is gorgeous; (The chances are as low as me telling a girl she's pretty.)

And I really adores the kids from the movie (so cute can die)

The story is kinda like a male version of Cinderella happening in India. The guy who served tea for the operators in a phone company turned to be a millionaire in just one night. The conflict was, however, people doubt about the capability of a caterer chawalla for knowing all the answers from the game show. Then he started to tell his story as a slummer and how he ended up being able to answer all the questions without cheating.

The movie certainly impacted me somehow. Perhaps an adoption from India might help. LOL. Words can't describe. YOU MUST WATCH THE MOVIE YOURSELF.

Jai Ho - A.R. Rahman (It keeps playing on my head even when itunes is off! Darn!)




* ask me for further details which I am not suppose to be blogging about. Woohoo..