Summer Made In the USA

Can't believe summer is almost over, just a little bit of sunshine and hair blowing in the wind losing track in time.. I guess this is by far the best summer I had in spent in America - visited a couple places, had some spontaneous plans, met new circle of people and most importantly I get to know myself better.
Had some rough moments during this last trip to Santa Cruz and I am somewhat feeling disappointed. Not sure what to do but hopefully I will figure out something soon. *sad face*
With school starting in two days, I can't imagine what's gonna happen in the following months. Anyway done with ranting for now and here are some photos from Santa Cruz. Sadly there's no group photo because I decided to put on my bitch resting face for the remaining trip.

Santa Cruz Beach 

White people wearing skinny jeans to the beach and trying to make sandcastle..

...and then a perfect sandcastle

Emilie 

It's Not Like The Movies

Finding someone who genuinely cares for  you is really hard. On top of that, they have to accept all your flaws and still find a way to bring out the best in you. I am blessed I know and I am grateful for that. Even though most of the time the reality is not meeting the expectations, it is good enough. For me at least. I don't expect life to happen just like the movies, because clearly it is not.

Symbiosis

Half my life I've been having issues trusting people completely. I'm 100% sure it stems from my childhood and all that mess I experienced in life. I think people in general are just using me as a tool. Truth is - it is the truth.

However, not one person till today has told me it is okay to be a tool. In fact - that makes you valuable. I am really happy today because I have found someone who sees values in me. You told me its okay to feel how I feel because we all are living based on symbiosis relationships. I should still have faith in people despite all these parasites who were drowning my life and that was really stupid of me to actually allow them to bring me down.

I am officially ending my great depression today. Life has been nothing but great and I'm grateful for finding someone who I can share my joy with. :) I'm not saying I won't get upset but I will try my best to stay happy. I know I can do it because now I know someone will have my back if I fall. You found me when I was at the lowest point of my life but I sure as hell will improve to be the best version of me anyone will ever seen.

Only four words to sum up how I feel now - 非常幸福

My Conclusion Is..

After meeting up with so many different people around the world (sort of), here is my theory, hypothetically, on:
1. Malays are friendly
2. Chinese are materialistic / fucking think they are the smartest
3. Hispanics are helpful (mostly)
4. White people care most about themselves
5. Russians are mean and egotistical
6. Philippines are lazy and drunk 48/7
7. Thai are warm
8. Japanese are polite
10.Koreans are over patriotic
11.Indians know maths the best
12.Indonesians are horny
13.Arabians are hornier
14.Cambodians are naive
15.Vietnamese only help themselves
16.Brazilians are hot
17.Spaniards are hotter, less intelligent
18.Cubans are stubborn
19.African americans are nice and down to earth
20.Italians are all about money

FML hard.

Happy

I was reading an article today about Happiness & Joy. A line caught my eyes real deep:

We learn new things everyday. We learn to be stressed. We learn to be happy. Day by day, if we kept learning to stress, we get better in stressing ourselves; Same goes to happy. So, why are we learning stress instead?

I know things are always easier to be said than done. But, I guess, happiness don't just come by one day and say hello to you. You gotta make yourself happy at the first place. I am in the process of learning that. Need no to be upset for life. Shit things happen everyday. Looking for something to be happy about? Look outside from the window pane, breath-in, fresh air can makes one happy too. Just don't take things for granted. Appreciate every little things, be thankful.

And too from today onwards, I wanna learn another thing - honesty. Apparently real friends tell the truth; so if I think you are ugly I will have no problem telling you that to your face. So be offended and just leave cause you cannot accept the reality that you're ugly. Go find someone else who is willing to lie straight to your face that you are cute. I'm not that kinda liar. Not anymore. You are ugly. 'Nuff said.

(p/s: Im laughing to myself watching 'cater2u' video. Aww)

祝你新婚愉快

好 sad 感触啊～ 我有个由细玩到大geh表姐今日嫁人 我去唔到
好咀丧啊 我真系好想去ga
我妈打俾我同我通电 之后就pass左个电话俾表姐 其实我听到佢把声时
已经好想喊啦 点解啊～
我地系青梅竹马 由细玩到大 我仲记得话过要娶表姐添 哈哈
往事只能回味 唉
不过无论点都好 结婚系件开心geh事 应该邓人地高兴 唔开心geh post
就留番下次再blog 啦

新婚愉快啊表姐！

Mad

Right now, I am 20% upset and 80% angry. Upset due to the reason that I might not get to online for the coming few days and angry because my damn sister forgot to pay the net bills!! BITCH!! With raining like cats and dogs out there, I was desperately looking for a TM Point which hardly can be found anywhere. By the end of the day, not only I didn't get to clear the bills, I got myself wet and cold and stuck in the jam.

Here comes the part I am really dulan about. So as I was stuck in the jam, raining, cold, dizzy ... this stupid taxi from nowhere intended to cut my line. I don't mind giving in way but, that stupid taxi was trying to cut me from the very back and he was driving at the opposite lane! Cibai! Obviously I won't let him in because it was so so so wrong of him to drive at the opposite lane at the first place , not to mention I wanna see him get horned by the cars coming from the other way, and so I didnt leave any space for him to cut in. I am pretty sure the driver ain't chinese, let's name him Cowhead, sohai cowhead was so stubborn to cut in, and right after I passed through, he just drove in and was about to knock on a motorcyclist. The motorcyclist tried to avoid him and ended up knocked on my car.

As the rain was so heavy, I didn't get down of the car because I don't want to cause anymore traffics. So I gave the motorcyclist a sign telling him its ok. And on the other hand, a middle finger for Cibai Cowhead. Grrr... Really an asshole! He didn't even apologize to the motorcyclist! What if the motor tried to avoid him and get knock down and die on the spot?! Here's a little shout out to all the irresponsible taxi drivers out there, fuck yourself and your damn selfish attitude! U are not the only one who are rushing back to buka puasa home/work/find hookers idiot!! Just be patient and stick to the queue bitch! IF u planned to die, just jump from klcc and make us proud any building with 20 floors height at least. Shame on u as driver. Idiot! Son of a bitch!

KokHong Made Me Do This

It's 4 in the morning and I am still watching this japanese drama (thanks to KOKHONG and Joanne!) So irresistible.. the japanese series back then were really way better..



I know this was a show from last decade but srsly, I don't mind watching it over and over again.. its not kelishei cliche as what we are having nowadays. Awww.. old memories.. I used to follow J-Dramz by the weekends when I was in primary school..


What was the last japanese show you had or still on your mind? (Put aside Totoro and Doraemon)

The Declaration of Minty

I might not be 20 Y.O. by now but I'm definitely feeling the pressures of being one.
Being 20 meant a lot to me. It could be a beginning of:
- Losing my virginity
- stop hating people who once hurt me or my family
- less evasion (I guess)
- learning to let go sometimes
- being able to think
- missing my teenage life
- searching for dreams
- cherishing every moments I am having now.. etc etc

At the same time, it might also be an ending of:
- being childish
- being stubborn
- causing any vexatious situation
- day-dreaming
- creating hypothetical questions for myself
- my life

I recalled my past and realized, my history was kinda different compared to people my age. I didn't involve in any love-line before, I'm not sure was it of me being disdain, or I'm not ready to commit for a relationship due to the burdens I was carrying all these time. Meanwhile, I am hoping there won't be a day where I need to make a choice between love or my career. However, as time goes, I am able to care less about my past and moved on with my life. And right now, I felt a more belonging life of mine. This is my time. I hope I didn't disappoint anyone. At least not myself.

二十的宣言

原来我已经二十岁
二十, 可能系个新开始:
开始唔再讨厌过去伤害过我同我屋企geh人
开始唔会有太多避忌
开始会放开
开始会思考
开始缅怀过去
开始寻找理想 (可能之前个d唔系几实际)
开始珍惜.. 等等

但二十, 亦可能系个结束:
结束稚气
结束固执
结束无理取闹
结束天马行空
结束埋怨过去
结束假设性geh逻辑
结束自己好傻好天真..等等

回想我的过去, 有发现, 我同其他同年纪geh遭遇略有唔同.. 我没有轰烈的爱情史, 可能系我不屑，或者系我害怕投入另一个commitment, 唔想有太多顾忌同牵挂, 因为我觉得我实在有太多背伏, 同时唔希望将来, 我需要系事业与情感之间, 做一选择. 有样野值得庆祝geh系, 我开始觉得我唔再需要理会太多我的过去, feel到我依家正真正开始我属于自己ge生活. 希望我唔会令自己失望. 希望

MintZhet: Chaotic

It's been a really bad couple of days I had. Real bad. Everything just doesn't seemed right. I flung my assignments, failed to submit on time (darn, it was delayed 5 minutes! Just 5!), knowing I will be alone on VDay phone is malfunctioning, etc etc.

But its okay. What's life if its too enjoyable right? So right after my submissions today, I took a break and did what I do best. Geez, I'm too lazy to continue. Saturday wasn't that bad. A night out with friends and family and I'm watching "Penelope" now, a movie I didn't get to watch it fully on the plane during my last flight. Aiz. Going to change my layout soon. CNY is over. Time for a change. So as my life. My thoughts. My whatever shit. Afterall, I'm just an ordinary earthling with just a little more talents. Whoaps.

Addicted to :
Dead and Gone

We Are Family

I had a great great great day. Superbly enjoyed the lunch and dinner with my uncle and auntie. Dinner at the Vietnamese Cuisine was nice. Its a very delicious meal I must say. Instead of going for gyms, cutting off lunch and dinner, Hashridz, yes I am talking to you, why not try out something fresh and healthy yet still tasty as a good diet.


My meal consisted of carrots, cucumber, fresh herbs, sprouts, some lai fun and etc etc. (This is what normal people I eat to be in size "0". I know I know, beauty is pain, some theories that Hash forever will not learned.)

Next, we did some camwhoring at the entrance of the mall. The photos were too pretty until it hurts! I mean it. Haha.




By the end of the day, seeing the joy and happiness on everyone's faces in each and every photos make me felt so grateful for being a part of this family. oOo.

Song of the day: Stand Up for Love - Destiny Child

Happy CNY

I must say this year marked one of the best Chinese New Year I had. Felt more comfortable, much closer to my relatives.. not sure why but its definitely a good sign. Ha!
Too bad I haven't upload any photos for this, I don't have any new photos thanks to Watt (my sonyE) but I promised I'm gonna have more photos coming up. Till then, its Minty here, signing off. XOXO. LOL

Currently listening to:
Lost - Katy Perry

Being MintZhet

Its hard to maintain everything in the same condition all the time.

I was chatting with one friend of mine, and all of a sudden, he popped a question saying:
How long have we know each other for?

Wow.. then I started counting.. it's been seven great years.. we do, still remain as close as we were.. despite the fact that we are no longer studying together or always get to spend our times with each others. (That sounded just as gay as Chad Danforth!)

But some others, however, started to doubt about our friendships. Neither myself can determine the exact causes - was it my ego or the low self-esteem of others which developed without us realizing. Its such a sad case to see, people tend to take unintentional jokes as serious quotes. I have to admit on some points that, I did make some bad comments/ sarcasm/ critics that weren't meant the way they were sounded like (and I sincerely apologize if it sounds offending to anyone of you), but, by the end of the day, its up to how the messages were interpreted.

I'm stuck right now as I can't think of any words best describe me, or my feelings. Hopes to see changes in the future. I'd rather think life is challenging than difficult. After all, its our mindset. That's it.


Good night and happy new year.