岁月如歌

最近喜欢打中文
可能系fb D人都share紧什么歌唱比赛或综艺节目 有的没的
认识我的人都应该知道我比较哈洋 但其实我觉得有D内容 中文写起来会比较贴切
可能系我的英文比较街头化 就总觉得有时词不达意 好似唔够文才
虽然中文程度都系麻麻地 但系多得TVB同壹周刊 我的中文都ngak得下人geh

话说最近回国探亲 本来系打算本着不闻不问的心态同朋友们聚会
殊不知大家十年如一日 虽然倾D野来来去去都系个几味 但系就觉得 咦 其实大家的默契都仲系度 忽然觉得好warm 好似返回中学时期的傻气时代
但系人都会长大 其实大家都已经挥别了当初的稚气 多左份沧桑感同麻甩味
就暂且唔提其他人 就我个人来比 我都觉得我‘成熟’左好多
以前会觉得只要对人好 人地就会对你好
但其实世界哪有1＋1＝2甘简单
来到美国 我学识一样很宝贵的课程
每个人都有自己的agenda，目标同理想
有时候你觉得人家刻意针对 又或者利用紧自己 其实不过系人与人之间 因为观点唔同
因而影响对方的决定 而产生conflict
其实当你踏出个问题圈子 从旁观者身份看内容 可能分析观又会系另一回事
这个世界无人会觉得自己是奸角 系因为好多时候我们做的决定系由我们本身当出发点
无意中影响到其他人 被误当坏人 其实不难了解 广东话都有句 好心做坏事

有时候真的觉得自己很像个计时炸弹
唔知道几时又会爆发 但系年纪大左 系handle情绪方面其实已经升lev左
好 发ngam疯完
早透

(P/S: 没有宫二 怎敢说心事？）

后遗症

年纪大了 记忆开始衰退 是时候把一些回忆给删除
我选择.忘记我们
一起淋过的大雨
一起等过的寿司
一起放过的风筝
一起踏过的单车
一起挤过的巴士
一起看过的电影
一起尝过的西餐
一起share过的可乐
一起塞过的交通
一起聊过的通宵电话
一起看过的家私
一起听过的CD
一起唱过的生日歌
一起憧憬过的未来

虽然偶尔有点窒息 可是这社会让我明白 无论在什么情况之下 都要把最真实的一面 留给自己
只有自己知道自己要什么
You may know what you need, but to get what you want, better see that you keep what you have.

Summer Made In the USA

Can't believe summer is almost over, just a little bit of sunshine and hair blowing in the wind losing track in time.. I guess this is by far the best summer I had in spent in America - visited a couple places, had some spontaneous plans, met new circle of people and most importantly I get to know myself better.
Had some rough moments during this last trip to Santa Cruz and I am somewhat feeling disappointed. Not sure what to do but hopefully I will figure out something soon. *sad face*
With school starting in two days, I can't imagine what's gonna happen in the following months. Anyway done with ranting for now and here are some photos from Santa Cruz. Sadly there's no group photo because I decided to put on my bitch resting face for the remaining trip.

Santa Cruz Beach 

White people wearing skinny jeans to the beach and trying to make sandcastle..

...and then a perfect sandcastle

Emilie 

It's Not Like The Movies

Finding someone who genuinely cares for  you is really hard. On top of that, they have to accept all your flaws and still find a way to bring out the best in you. I am blessed I know and I am grateful for that. Even though most of the time the reality is not meeting the expectations, it is good enough. For me at least. I don't expect life to happen just like the movies, because clearly it is not.

Begin Again

Here I am on a Wednesday in a cafe - blogging haha..
I've been taking writing class lately and I think the class is really helpful in terms of helping me to put out my thoughts on paper. Self-expression I guess. So where should I begin?

Let's start with my hair - incase you haven't heard or seen it on facebook, I dyed my hair blonde! I'm legit blonde now. (yay!) Don't ask me why because I probably can't tell you either. You know, sometimes you just woke up and feel like chopping off all your hair for no reason. It's one of those days. CRAY CRAY!

If I say I'm fully recovered that would be a lie because there's no effing cure for this. However I think I am more stable now than before, just not knowing when shit is gonna hit the fan again. I was so happy yesterday making meals and baking pie for dinner and waking up feeling so wonderful and shit took a 180 degree turn today as I wake up feeling like shit. Gosh this is horrible.

Anyway back to some life events update - went to Six Flags last weekend and got sunburnt! Dang it. I feel very bad because I don't think I did a good job organizing everything but everyone said they were pleased and happy. Still.. i don't know.. Fucking depression argh..

I don't know why I am feeling blue right now

you know you found your best friend when he bought u a gun knowing you have suicidal symptom :)

Duckface with Noah. FAILED

Homemade lasagna

Drinking with Uli AGAIN

Watched 'Only God Forgives' - most pretentious art film ever. 

homemade lime pie